Thursday, November 30

Fools Die


you will come to a point when you see someone with that skeptical looks and you doubt of how far they can go...never should it be a thought if its heart is what you wish to hold...there has always been rumours and lies of whom you consider fools and whom you think not...how you think makes up the judgement...how fool is a fool and how smart are you to judge?...you see its life as perforated waiting to be torn apart and yet none is my effort to keep it intact...and who is it to die when you don't see their soul, lest that you assume to make feelings less agitated to you...and how or which is death? the end of breath or shall I say the end of time? what is death to you when you know its sizzling on your neck or even closer? better shut the cave with the pink of lips and the white of teeth made curved by the transparency of your humility...Allah, I kneel only to You, and I place my face to the ground to worship You, not to ever resent and in my humbleness and loneliness that for You, I live this life...Allah, keep me in Your light and give me the strength when I'm under the shed of ignorance...pull me out of these complaints and make me accept Your trials with open arms and open heart so that I may be Your servant that walk by Your permission...make my vicissitude from the reign of the dark angels to Your light a blessed journey and one way route, as if the orifice is guarded by the angels of hell, never to let any walk back to heaven, unless You wish so...

ولما برزوا لجلوت وجنو ده قا ل ربنآ أفرغ علينا صبرا وثبت أقدا منا وانصرنا على لقوم الكفرين

250. Tatkala Jalut dan tentaranya telah nampak oleh mereka, merekapun (Thalut dan tentaranya) berdoa: "Ya Tuhan kami, tuangkanlah kesabaran atas diri kami, dan kukuhkanlah pendirian kami dan tolonglah kami terhadap orang-orang kafir."





Monday, November 27

Meridian 2009

Finally I'm through with my exams. Alhamdulillah, everything seemed to be well. InsyaAllah, everything would be all right. This is now the time for people to buzz off to Malaysia; home sweet home(Well, maybe a bit sour there). It's fun watching your friends packing up and knowing that soon, I'll pack too. =). Had a football game this evening. Wonderful day and weather to finish my exams and to play football. Surely a blessing from Allah for His servants. May Allah forgives us all.

As usual, found some thoughts that I reckon would be worth to share about with all you readers{Thanks to the >920 repeating visitors for the past few months ;)}.This one is a bit sensitive, but in a way I think it makes people start to realize; I hope. Actually I've been thinking about this for quite some time, after a discussion with my 'friends'. Horribly interesting. I really think this issue is "one big issue" for me to write about, but just to pinch your mind for a moment so we'll start thinking and working for it. This one's called "A House Too Beautiful"(Nice, haa?!).

A typical house, if you wish to visualize it from that seat. Plain, nothing special. The wall is white, the windows are shut, the door is empty, the grass has been trimmed and pebbles spread across the yard. Calm yet intriguing after a while gazing at it. All the houses around are so packed with the waves of lights and sounds made by the magic box that we call 'television' while this house doesn't. Only after a while could you hear some rumblings and tiny voices of little kids playing and the father's voice would echo behind the window. The car parked in front is just the car that an automotive cognoscenti would skip the watch. For quite sometime you might want to peek what's inside but you can't cause you're actually just passing by after a stroll to the shop to get some flour for your mom. Guess what, I'll tell you bits and pieces about what's in there.
Let me humour you.

The father is young, around 23 of age. Not anyone as simple as it might come to your thoughts. Not someone who cares too much about how he dresses nor what name he's on with. Everything would be okay as long as its nice and decent. Not just to you, but to Allah as well. He would be in front of his desk right now, writing some notes from a book he's reading. At times, he would gaze at his children and his wife. As soft as a feather the eyes would send a message saying "I'm happy to have all of you here."

The mother is as young as the father. Maybe younger, but it never came to my concern to get it as precise as you wish. As much as the father likes, she is as simple as he is. well maybe a bit complicated, in my point of view. Women are never simple. Remember that they are bent and stiff? And that you need to be smart to get them straight and not break? Or do you not? She's
reading as well but not making any notes cause the right hand is on her daughter's head who's sleeping on her lap. Her two boys are running around playing hero and villain, but as decent as the atmosphere of the house is would they behave.

The two boys now. The other is older than another. One is fat and lumpy, the other is about to be. Well maybe not that big. Still they are cute and clean. They are such the kids you wouldn't want to be climbing behind your back and run around the dining hall. The little girl is the one you would love to carry in your hands. Quiet and warm, smiles and cries are what off her.

Not to forget about what's in the house. Read this slowly and visiualize it in your head; Nothing extravagant but well equipped. BOO!!(a short one)

Splendid family aren't they? But one thing that is different about them, they are made up of those who whisper, "Allah, ar-Rasul, al-Quran, jihad fi sabilillah, syahid fi sabilillah" at times of hardship or not. They probably are the parents that you read about in books of great men and women. Parents that are made up of people such like you, perhaps. A father and mother that knows their goals and they have the way to reach those goals. Is that you? Or will you be as such? I wonder...

Well, here's what I think what they are made off.

The Father: like what you think...How are you thinking about him?
The Mother: Maybe like what the 'her' might be thinking.

Interesting, aight?

To get your head running about this family, think of it like this;

-You're the father and you're reading like he is. What book would you be reading at the moment? Then what book next?
-You're jotting down some notes, what notes would you likely make?
-You have three kids, what sort of people would you wan't them to be? Which school would you send them to? Or most importantly, what life would you want them to go through?
-You have a car, what car would you mind having?(I said 'mind having' not 'like having')
-You owe that house, how big a house would you want it to be? What is it you want to that house to be filled with? What atmosphere would you like to wander around the house?
-You're employed, where might you work then?
-Now, you have that wife, ...what's your choice? You good for her? She fits you well?
-Wait, she came with her parents. How would you deal with them? Any ideas?
-Guess what, she has brothers and sisters too. Lucky enough, she might have a coaster of them! You can handle them, right?
-Now, she's emplyoed as well. Mind tolerating with her work demands? Or, "Please stop working and take care of the family"?
-You have got brothers and sisters too, is she getting well with them? Can you think of a way to make it happen? Or should you just separate her from your 'life'?
-What about the grandma and grandpa? You can't leave them behind!!!
-You've got a good paying job remember? Where would it go?

Now for all the women reading this, change the father to mother, he to she, wife to husband and all other masculines to feminines(is this right? i mean my english).

Thinking about this is interesting, but getting there is hard. It is never too early to be thinking about this. At least it gives you more time to get ready for the next 'step'. No joke, you're twenty something(or at least 19). Grow up! And don't take this as something just 'interesting' coz I really would want you to think of it like a father/mother(and me as well).

Done for this one. Or else you would start quizzing me. Those going home, careful with what you have, take care of yourself, your family. Think as if you're the mother/father(i'm trying to be fair here, father first then mother for the precedence), maybe that'll help you become a better 'teacher' soon.

Off to homeland soon. Maybe no more updates by 3rd. Until the next bell tolls.

Tuesday, November 21

things are not yours to decide

maybe the one who put you in the cup alone,
maybe someone who left you in the field alone,
or maybe someone who let you walk yourself
in the street,
would be the first to say hello and gave itself to you,
to be the best of people around you.